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Hujan=Umbrella 11:40 PM

today was such lame... i dun know wat to do. juz kuang-kuik dr bilik-hall-dapur-toilet all day long.nk wat i-say-men pn laptop xda. huhu. then the little advanture started when:


today is pasar mlm day. i already waited for it for almost 2 weeks (coz last weekend i went back to ipoh..huhu). y shud i wait for it?? hehe..its cuz.... AYAM MADU...huhu. sedap seh... i'll buy it every saturday night market.

but on 5 p.m., da sky started to gloom...da lightning flashing in da skies. n i started shivering. i dun like it when da hard rain falls from skies. not good, not good. so i decided to went there earlier. d idea was, we can make it before da rain. 

then juz after we (me n nik ida) had our AYAM MADU, trus ujan lebat. Allah... luckily i have my umbrella even it already damaged juz after we got out from da house - on hard wind. but the umbrella is not enuf. nik ida trousers wet n so my jeans. uhuh... kalo bkan sebab da beli makanan, aku redah je balik. basah pun basah la. then we shading under one of da stall there. tunggu smpai ujan tuh reda skit.




















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on way home after dat kitorang kne benti few times n trap at Pattani (gerai tepi jalan). we only make it after maghrib. n rite now, i think i already get high tempreture...maybe a fever tomorrow.. but i hope not.

heh..itula penangan AYAM MADU...hurm... wanna try? :P

Torn 1:23 AM

actually, i dun have any ideas on writing rite now. (involving my novel progress also). there r many things inside my head, which i prefer not to think too much. serabut sangat la..

uhuk2.

somebody ask me lately, "ko de claim ko tuh BAGUS sangat ker babe?".
masyaAllah..tak pernah terlintas di fikiran untuk wat statement itu. Statement tu untuk org yg riak lagi takbur dengan kurniaan Allah je, dan aku bukan la antara org2 itu. I always aware where my level at. maybe there r somebody dat actually misunderstanding wit my comments or my statements but believe me, i'm not dat kind of person. ask anybody who really know me, they wont say so. i appologize if there r some heartfeelings or hurtfeelings towards me. really sorry. bukan niat aku pun nk sesuka ati menyakitkan perasaan org len kan. aku manusia, slalu wat salah. tgk la umo aku pun, budak lagi. baru nak kenal dunia. tapi sebab simple mistake pun org nak besar2kn..hurmm...entah la kan.

hmm...xper la...kalo de org nk salah anggap aku pn xper. bukan kaco idup aku pun. aku still makan nasi cam biase, gayut ngan bf aku cm biase. rutin idup aku xberubah apa2 pn kn, so, why bother? aku tak takut dengan judgement manusia2 kt dunia nih, coz aku amat yakin mahkamah Allah S.W.T Maha Adil kan? so jawab la kt akhirat ye...(senang kn prinsip aku?? sebab xske nk pk banyak bende xpatut2 nih..hehe)


Wallahhualam...


p.s.: aku takkan doakan orang itu macam mana die doa aku, sebab takut tak ikhlas. nanti jadi dosa. aku xnak la ditanya dlam kubur sok soalan2 yang aku leh elak nih. so, sorry yer.


6 Perkara Allah S.W.T sembunyikan 1:21 AM

Marilah sama2 kita fikirkan dan berusaha lakukan... Sesungguhnya Allah 
S.W.Ttelah menyembunyikan enam perkara iaitu : 

* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan redha-Nya dalam taat. 
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan murka-Nya di dalam maksiat. 
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan nama-Nya yang Maha Agung di dalamAl-Quran. 
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan Lailatul Qadar di dalam bulan Ramadhan. 
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan solat yang paling utama di dalam solat 
(yang 
lima waktu). 
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan (tarikh terjadinya) hari kiamat di dalam 
semua hari. 

Semoga kita mendapat berkat daripada ilmu ini. Wallahualam 

Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang 4:16 PM


Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang - Alyah

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali sekala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba-tiba
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Tak mungkin kerana sayang..hanya kadang kala aku terkenang...


usually..i'm not a jiwang person. nobody ever called me jiwang anyway. i even dun really into malay songs. but last week, i see intro for a malay soap called...erm.. i dun remember la.. something about kassandra. one of the actor is jehan miskin if i'm not mistaken.

so da intro is a chorus from Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang - Alyah. which i never bother before but when i heard it on da gazet, i kinda like it. then after i went home at KL, i start to find out the song title n da singer. Farah (my housemate) said it was Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang from Alyah. owh...then i remembered that she used to search for dat songs few months ago.. hoho. well, i'm not updating, i guess.

then i started to search for da lyric. after i got it...n sing it..i found out that...hmmm....its remind me to someone... MOHD FIRDAUS ISMAIL dat until now i never forgot. he keeps in my mind after in this few years, n still happen even after i met and happy wit EPOI. haiiyaaahhh...

y is it so...hard to forget?? (sigh...)




p.s.: epoi..its doesn't mean dat i'm not SAYANG u kay. u'r in my mind..always!



From Quran : Concept of leadership with regard to gender 11:15 AM

Any discussion of an Islamic point-of-view on a matter begins with a study of relevant verses (if any) from the Quran. Most Muslims consider the Quran the unaltered word of God as revealed to Prophet Mohammed in the seventh century of the Common Era. It is the primary source of Islamic jurisprudence, followed by the Prophet’s example or sunnah (a combination of biographies and compilations of records of his sayings and actions), the consensus of scholars, and derivation of law through analogy. Unlike the last two sources of jurisprudence, Quranic ordinances are binding on all Muslims, as is the Prophet’s Sunnah. We will therefore confine our discussion of the scriptural treatment of female leadership to the Quran and Sunnah. Does the Quran designate women as the unconditional followers of men within the family and/or within society? Two Quranic verses seem to acknowledge men’s leadership over women:1. Men are in charge of women, because God has made some excel (faddala) some of the others [4:34].2. And they (women) have rights similar to those (of men) over them in kindness, and men are a degree above them [2:228].


Conservative Muslims frequently quote these verse to promulgate the view that a man is the head of the Muslim family and that a woman may never take charge of men. Syed Abul a’la Maududi, for example, extended the role of man as leader and woman as follower within the family to the public sphere. He upheld the translation: “Men are the managers of the affairs of women because God has made the one superior to the other” (cited in Wadud 71). According to Amina Wadud, “an individual scholar who considers faddala an unconditional preference of males over females does not restrict qiwamah to the family relationship but applies it to society at large. Men, the superior beings, are qawwamuna ala women, the dependent, inferior beings” (72). This view opposes any possibility of female leadership as it claims the Quran prefers men as leaders both within the family and within society.On the other hand, fundamentalists such as Sayyid Qutb restrict the applicability of the verses to the family. Qutb upholds that as men provide for women, they earn the privilege of being in charge of women within the conjugal relationship. Even some modernists, such as Rafiq Zakaria, concede that men are the leaders within the family even though they argue women can be leaders at the same time. Scholars such as Qutb and Zakaria restrict the privilege of men over women to within the family as the preceding and following verses deal with conjugal relations and not with the status of each sex in society at large.


At the opposite end of the spectrum from Maududi, Amina Wadud rejects the idea that the Quran relegates women to an inferior position within the family or society in Quran and Woman. She analyzes the first verse as follows: “Men are [qawwamuna ala] women [on the basis] of what God has [preferred] (faddala) some of them over others, and [on the basis] of what they spend of their property (for the support of women)” [4:34]. She defines the more ‘what’ God has given to men as inheritance, the only thing of which God gives more to men in the Quran; she therefore interprets the verse to mean men must use their inheritance and earnings to tend to the needs of women as females play an indispensable and arduous role in assuring the continuation of the human species:

The childbearing responsibility is of grave importance: human existence depends upon it. This responsibility requires a great deal of physical strength, stamina, intelligence, and deep personal commitment. Yet, while this responsibility is so obvious and important, what is the responsibility of the male in this family and society at large? For simple balance and justice in creation, and to avoid oppression, his responsibility must be equally significant to the continuation of the human race. The Quran establishes his responsibility as qiwamah: seeing to it that the woman is not burdened with additional responsibilities which jeopardize that primary demanding responsibility that only she can fulfil. Ideally, everything she needs to fulfil her primary responsibility comfortably should be supplied in society, by the male: this means physical protection as well as material sustenance (73).


Therefore, the verse, according to Wadud, does not establish women as inferior to men or that men are the divinely designated leaders of women. It ordains men to fulfil responsibilities toward women who bear children and thereby should not be expected to work and support the family as well.With regard to verse 2:228, Wadud restricts it to the matter of divorce. The Quran allows men to divorce their wives without having to go to court whereas women have to seek the assistance of a judge. According to Wadud, this is necessary so that the judge can make sure the husband accepts the termination of the marriage without abusing the wife. Men therefore have to fulfill a greater financial responsibility toward women in return for the ease of initiating the divorce; they have a higher degree of financial responsibility toward women whereas a woman does not have to compensate a man if she initiates the divorce. For modernists such as Wadud, as women are not confined to being followers within the family, there is no prohibition against their assuming leadership roles within society.


Another verse occasionally used by conservatives warns against entrusting money to the “foolish” which many companions of the Prophet interpreted as a reference to women as well as children: “Give not unto the foolish (what is in) your (keeping of their wealth), which Allah has given you to maintain” [4:5]. If God has forbidden men to entrust their money to women, how can they even think of entrusting all of society to them? Al-Tabari, however, says that had God wished to denote women by “foolish” he would have used the feminine plural form of foolish instead of the masculine or gender-neutral one (Mernissi 96). The use of this verse to prohibit female leadership exemplifies the range of evidence both sides bring to support their views. With regard to such verses, the decision on whether or not women may lead men and women depends on whether a nation accepts the fundamentalist or modernist interpretation. Through present day, the conservative view has generally received wider acceptance. Given the possible limitation of verses 4:3 and 2:228 to the conjugal relationship, does the Quran make any specific references to female leadership within society or a ‘nation’?

well...i'm not missing you! 10:00 PM

i'm well known as a happy gurl now. i have all da luv i wanted n needed: from Allah, family, da guy dat i pray for all this years, best frens, etc. which remind me, i dun have any arguments or unsatisfied matters anymore. orang kate kalo Allah nak tarik nyawa aku skang pun, tak ralat la. coz aku di bawah lindungan dan perhatian orang2 yang sayangkan aku dan menerima aku seadanya. so my priority now are:

  1. Allah S.W.T.
  2. parents
  3. siblings
  4. epoi (hehe..true, i really pray for him. thank god i found you!)
  5. my study
  6. lily-nuar-odah-izzah-siva (my SAHABAT. which i never ask for more)
  7. entertainment (manga, movies..hehe)
  8. n da rest is history

wit all this, shud i missing others? hell no! 
aku xdpt la nk sebut sumer kengkawan aku, housemate, classmate, woodcampers which br knal da mesra. but i do love their presence dan mereka ini termasuk dlam doaku (muslimin dan muslimat). oleh kerana aku bersyukur dengan kesemua diatas, i always remind my self, they are only TEMPORARY. yang kekal hanyalah Allah S.W.T. maka yang penting masihlah DIA. dan berbalik lah pada basic mengapa Allah membenarkan roh kita ditiup ke jasad sewaktu awal kejadian dan apakah janji kita padaNYA : untuk menjadi HAMBANYA.

jadi mengapa harus ada benci? tak penat ker asik pikir yang lepas2? enjoy ur life...its easy! bak kate mak aku: enjoy your day n fight for tomoro. janji tahu mengapa kita DIBENARKAN hidup.