superchunky from Hell 10:34 PM

well, i dun know what to post for a while. guess, i dun have idea. so, this is manga dat i view recently. Bleach 363- Superchunky From Hell



HOW TO CURE A HEART BROKEN 3:33 AM

Actually, i already recovered from the heart broken. yes, the incident is about few days ago (15th June 2009) but somehow, i got strength from my faith towards Allah+ my mother and my lil sister+my surroundings (frens, lecturer). its good rite?? i mean, i didnt expect to gain a calm life this soon. i expect that i will grieving for quite sometimes (at least a week). because last time i got a heart break, i spend 3 weeks of non-stop crying-everywhere. in my office, on my way home, of coz in toilet too. i take 2 years to fully recovered (to forget and open my heart to next relationship). compared to when the first time i've got a heart broken with FIRDAUS...this time is nothing...seriously. so i guess i'm not missing anything. i still got all the love i needed.


on the day he's dumping me, I chant Yasiin to relieved my heart. yes, i cried with it. on every end of "...mubiin.." (there are 7 of them in Yasiin), i ask Allah to make it easy for me to go through this heart broken period, make it easy for me to forget about him, make me not to hate him and make me not to think about him much. dats my mom's suggestion to me if i have any difficulties.

i even called my mother to told her the incident. hehe..but she blamed me actually. she said I was never serious in relationship. even i denied it, then i think, maybe my mother's rite. (actually i'm afraid to get serious, dat the impact will be hard if something like this happen). then i ask her to passed the phone to my lil sister who knew every single updates of my relationship (present and previous). we were really close. i also told her the same things i said to my mom. and she also said the exact word as my mother " i was never serious in relationship". haha..i'm sure she doesnt listen to my mother when she (my mom) said that before. so i have to admit the quote. haha...alamak...

so then, i guess the one that i really need is my mom. the conclusion is from THE ONE lyric: Shakira.

You're the one I need
The way back home is always long
But if you're close to me I'm holding on
You're the one I need
My real life has just begun
Cause there's nothing like your smile made of sun

In the world full of strangers
You're the one I know..


only a mother knew how to ease a heart broken..

I'M NOT MISSING YOU-the lyric 3:35 AM

::.this lyric fits me too well rite now.::

Oh, Oh
Im not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Dont know what I was missing or why I aint listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus]
(But) Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, if he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I cant be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I cant keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone elses life

[Chorus]

Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

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BAD DAY 11:45 PM

this day is da worst??? no ...not yet...there will be worst than this day..trust me.


tapi arini betul la menguji kesabaran aku ketahap..mmm..almost maximum..i guess.
firstly, kne tipu dengan TV3, kate ktorang kne shooting commercial coke, sudahnye sampai ke malam kne tahan tuk rancangan ewah2. penat xyah citer laa..da la buang mase banyak kt citu, aku rase baik aku dok umah, tdo, wat asgmnt yg tgh melambak tuh!

second, he really DUMPING me...haha..on his birthday!! wat a joke!
and da reason, he's got other girl which he met before me. (then why's he dating me?????) and just now, with all appologize he could ask, he wants me to take care of myself.. of coz i will, silly! do u think dat i will suddenly die after u break-up wit me?? hell NO!

and third (which i hope last for da day).. i met da copycat of FIRDAUS at ewah2 shooting... ahahahahaha...on da day dat my bf dumped me, i met d other copy of my ex-bf......really... this is HILARIOUS..plus, he keep sitting beside me while the shoots. siap berlaga bahu lagi even i already gave him so much space to sit.

so da result..my hand keep shakin few times for this day(mcm parkinson..hehe), my head keep spinning around, and i can't focus on what should be on my mind next..

well...i hope next chapter will be, HOW TO CURE A BROKEN HEART

IF I WERE A BOY 3:10 AM


I think he left me…already. It’s not final yet but..(sighhh…(-_-;)). I just dunno wat to do. Even its not dat I never felt it, but I really dun want to go through it all over again.. its HURT!!! Why he’s doin this to me??




If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it huts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand

And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed


But you're just a boy

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Please Dun Stop da Music 12:18 AM

i'm going back to my hometown tomorrow..YAHOOOOO!!!!!

hehe
then we will go for camping at TELUK BATIK, PERAK with the rest of family on my mother side. i'm excited coz we doesnt do this for quite sometimes, almost 5 years (getting busy with our own life). and its not easy to getting together with da rest of my mom family. so, i think da family dat wud confirm to join us for this thursday trip will be my Mak Lang, Mak Teh, Mak Andak n they'll come with their kroni (family=kroni)(hehe...family word doesnt really exist in my family tree, we called it croni to replace it).
eheh...so it will be about a batalion of troops!!! with greatest fun, just by getting together!!

I REALLY CANT WAIT FOR IT!